Ramblings from Vietnam

Wow those posts were a year ago man, and I realise how dumb i sound..haha kiddin..yup those were for a computer module i did in year..1?haha and after one yr or so, i decided i shld come back here and not waste my precious creation: A BLOG.

I knew that when i came over to Vietnam, it would be a great, refreshing time with God, coz everythin's slower and stuff. I also knew that not everyday would be a nice one, and the problems and sian-days would soon pop up. But i didnt know it would be that quick.

Its been a week alr, and from the start I felt a little lost and useless, coz everyone here's so super busy and they don't really have time to teach me this and that. I try to helpout my dad here and there, but for some reason being the blur person i am, he could have done all e work by himself in a quarter of the time i take to just UNDERSTAND. Not even fully; maybe about half? Yup so sometimes i feel so bad coz he's got enough problems to handle, and here i am botherin him. But i guess slowly i learnt how to SLACK; can u believe it, its so boring sometimes i gotta learn how to slack, and slack online, but i got a big problem with lookin at computer screens the whole day, so i think by the time i get back to Singapore, my panda eyes would require some kinda make-up. Yup guess i'm still adjusting to it, but the next thing cant really get used to..writing the dumb REPORT.

I feel so sad for those who got posted to companies who would just ask them to tear paper, sweep the floor, all the sai-gang etc. WHAT THE CRAP ARE THEY GONNA WRITE IN THE REPORT MAN?!? I feel that poly does stupid things sometimes, but i myself aint smart either, so who am i to judge? Just opinions... Since i came over, this was one piece of crap buggin me all e time, like what to write for the report and stuff. Maybe this caused me to start with the mentality of wanting to learn and do only what would help in my report, and not learn actively and be motivated because i should. So when i have i nothin to do, i start worrying..and sometimes i feel so dumb and childish..why get upset over a small thing??? This piece of crap would be nothin when i see my Saviour man :)

This makes me wonder sometimes if it is really my fault if I don't like business and when i'm not motivated to learn at all. I mean if I have an internship with Hillsongs or Planetshakers you think i wouldn't wanna learn? To be on the safe side, i figured out some attitude problems today:
1) LAZINESS; true laziness, at its purest
2) as i said, doing everything that would only benefit the report and ignoring the rest
3) don't-like-than-don't-learn attitude

The last one makes me wonder bout my future job man..coz i don't seem to like anything at all, except the guitar stuff and full-time ministry?!? Maybe the Ferraris and Lambos?!? How worldly i still am...Yup so the future looks bleak, but maybe i shld open my eyes more and i guess still not mature enough yet la huh..i'll juz trust in Him.

Wow that was a niice explosion..guess those were building up over the past week, and i didnt really realise and feel it yet till today, since nothin was gettin better, so i had to come here and let go. Let me just say that the good times and the goodness of God has been so much more and better than what i've said up there, coz its just so refreshin to come here and find rest in Him. I have so much more time to read and just dwell in His presence, the pure beauty and simplicity of worshipping without a guitar, even though i brought over one. And i found a shop which sells guitars, and i tried one which was really quite unique man. It couldnt stay in tune however, but its quite cheap man, so i may buy it! Or shld i be faithful..HAHA

Through their ups and downs, David and the other Psalmists were frank in their writings and turned first to the Lord, nothin holdin them back. They just let out whatever they felt and were sincere and honest to e Lord, and we know God blessed David greatly after his trial. How cool la..i read somewhere that all the great men of the Lord, Martin Luther etc were mostly brutally honest in their ramblings to the Lord in their bad times, and i guess its because they truly recognised that they were not perfect and that God already knows whats goin on in their minds. Whats the point of saying this? I dunno. I forgot. hahaha thats how my mind works man, and its hard to understand me, but God does and its all that matters. But i'm really grateful to my family and frens who do.

Thank you all for your prayers. They're precious gems to God and I. Miss u all back there :) God bless