In My Own World
WAU..hahaha. I just read this devotional thing that talked about childlike faith, and something strucked me. It briefly talks about how children are actually always in their own world and are actually lonely, yet it's a different kind of loneliness we adults..ok not so old yet..we older ones feel. There's a touch of wonder and amazement in the midst of it, and through it all, kids seemed to be contented that they are actually lonely, simply because they are already in wonder of whatever is going on in their own world. Whatever they may be dreaming about, but they are in awe and fully contented about it, with no worries about the outside world.
I don't think it refers to being anti-social, or introverted or even being blur. Hahaha. Sure Christianity is a family thingy, and we gotta be immersed in healthy fellowship. That's important. But what about the times when we feel lonely? What about the times when the world seems to abandon us, and everyone has got their own friends?
I figured that I should go back to the times when I was a little kid, and try to remember how I felt in times of loneliness. Times when I felt abandoned. And this is cool, but I don't remember any!! I don't think it was because I had a fan club surrounding me or something, but i think i don't remember simply because I DIDN'T CARE!!! SO WHAT!! So what if i was alone?!? I remember being always consumed in my own world thinking about..hmmm..at that time still animals, power rangers, magic school bus, dinosaurs, backstreet boys and westlife. No guitars yet. HAHAHA i greatly regret about the last 2 man. COAST to COAST. HAHAHA. YUKKKK.
And of course I wasn't that outcast, but when I played catching during recess and stuff like that, I know I enjoyed fully, without worrying who's my friend and who's not and when's the next project to hand in. Around friends I enjoyed their company. Around nobody, I enjoyed nobody's company.
As we grow older, we start to think too much. Or we're forced to think too much. But I wanna get back there. When I'm around my precious friends now, i wanna enjoy their company. And when I'm around nobody, i wanna enjoy God's company.
So child-like faith includes contentment and pure amazement of God, even when we're all alone. Amazement in the midst of loneliness.
Niiiiice.
I don't think it refers to being anti-social, or introverted or even being blur. Hahaha. Sure Christianity is a family thingy, and we gotta be immersed in healthy fellowship. That's important. But what about the times when we feel lonely? What about the times when the world seems to abandon us, and everyone has got their own friends?
I figured that I should go back to the times when I was a little kid, and try to remember how I felt in times of loneliness. Times when I felt abandoned. And this is cool, but I don't remember any!! I don't think it was because I had a fan club surrounding me or something, but i think i don't remember simply because I DIDN'T CARE!!! SO WHAT!! So what if i was alone?!? I remember being always consumed in my own world thinking about..hmmm..at that time still animals, power rangers, magic school bus, dinosaurs, backstreet boys and westlife. No guitars yet. HAHAHA i greatly regret about the last 2 man. COAST to COAST. HAHAHA. YUKKKK.
And of course I wasn't that outcast, but when I played catching during recess and stuff like that, I know I enjoyed fully, without worrying who's my friend and who's not and when's the next project to hand in. Around friends I enjoyed their company. Around nobody, I enjoyed nobody's company.
As we grow older, we start to think too much. Or we're forced to think too much. But I wanna get back there. When I'm around my precious friends now, i wanna enjoy their company. And when I'm around nobody, i wanna enjoy God's company.
So child-like faith includes contentment and pure amazement of God, even when we're all alone. Amazement in the midst of loneliness.
Niiiiice.
posted by Kevin at 9:13 AM
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