Hard of Hearing

Ok after problem of talking still got problem of hearing. I think like my physical ears, my spiritual ears has been exposed to too much 'loud' voices until it became abit damaged. It's so hard to hear the correct voice.

I've been having sleepless nights till now, and there was one particular night where i thought i heard God speaking so clearly. It reallyreally sounded like Him. It really did. Than when something happens next and it totally contradicts what i thought He just spoke, it sucks man. Feels like i got con by the Holy Spirit. I mean, why didn't He stop that voice? If it really was my own or Satan's, they surely can imitate God's voice well! And i mean really really well!! Or maybe it really was God, just that my own thoughts or Satan came to pervert and manipulate them according to my selfish desires?I dunno..up to now i still don't. And i'm scared coz what if all along i've been listening to the devil? I'm surely on my way to hell man.

But i know that Lord is mighty to save and He leads us in the way everlasting. His arm is not to short to save and He guides us in paths of righteousness for His name's sake. Trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding; in all my ways i will acknowledge Him and He will make my paths straight. Trust Him for who He is and not what He can do. Trusting His heart. Thx for that bud.

Maybe that was a hard lesson for me. It gave me hope though, and I must say that hope is painful. Well false hope of course. Hope that is risky. I guess we should only hope in Him. He's the Rock of Ages.