Use my Tears

Its when your life gets disrupted that you start doing things out of the norm. I went for a swim today! Last time was prob a few yrs ago. Think the only style I could still decently swim is...FROG STYLE. My favourite.

Reminded me of childhood, where Jesus and my family was all that mattered.

I'd like to imagine that I cried out the whole swimming pool. Tears from probably the past 2 yrs. And now people are swimming in it, enjoying a swim and all. Yea and if only it was some kinda Living Water, or even be used for baptism! Yea if only God had so many other ways to use my tears for good.

And I know He will. I know He will use my tears for good. For His glory. Maybe even the salvation of others. For the joy of others. Anything that's good; Lord please use mine for good. Just like how You used Rachel's tears.

As I soaked there, I wanted to just cry out another pool of tears. It's such a struggle at work everyday, coz I don't even have time to sit down and cry. I can't even talk to anyone about it, and still gotta put up a smile in the workplace.

It's in times of feeling totally overwhelmed and so desperate for God where i know He's there. Coz sometimes I don't. It's when the slightest task becomes so difficult to even carry out, that we know everything we do is totally dependent on His strength.

Thx to you all for chatting online though, during working hours. Janell truly injects joy into others hahahaha. And images of my future rock band bringing others to Christ. Yea there's so much more hope beauty to life; I just gotta look at them. Had an analogy while we were going to sentosa, but enough typing :p.

"Use my tears". My next song. Haha.

God used Rachel's tears. He's gonna use mine. Yours?