Where the Hell?

Where the hell are You my God, where the hell are You?
Since what I hear ain't what I see,
You might as well just forget about me.

I thought when friends leave and there's nobody left,
You said that You'll be there.
Well what I hear ain't what I see,
And if that's the case then forget about me.

What am I pissed about I just don't know,
The more I anger others, the more I anger me
A genius stuck in a retard, a saint trapped in demons
What I wanna scream gets lost in the way.

How do I tell others of the pain in me?
A dagger in my heart is like a joke for their laughs.
Masks in the day disguise the torment,
Darkness falls and there, death calls.

Is this the life I'm meant to live?
Being everything whom I don't want to be.
Everything that goes wrong points fingers at me,
And if that's the case life can just forget about me.

You claimed to be the Good Shepherd, my Strong tower
Yet defenses I have to erect, protection I search for.
My family, myself all trusted in You,
Should we continue to act like fools?