HARLOW!
Wow it's been a week since Vietnam, and man..I miss the slackness there already. Oh no greener grass again.
It's just the first week of school, and I had a panic/stress attack just now, when suddenly everything came again. After 2 months of slacking, it's no joke u know. I suddenly started to doubt if I heard God correctly when He asked me to be a SM (Spiritual Multiplier-like PCGL) in crusade. I mean many people were asking me to really think about it coz I think they know I always over-commit, and I really felt it was God caling me to it during crusade meta camp last year. And I myself wasnt even thinking of it, coz I knew I may not cope. I just wanted the slack worship ic thingy.
The verse that spoke was weird. It was something like 'if you dont do it now, you'll never get another chance. It'll be gone.' Oops..so did I answer the call out of fear? Coz i know after i graduate the chance would really be gone.
I thought a miracle happened when Mummy Lam agreed to let me be a SM. I thought that was God's confirmation. And i was so glad I said yes, even though I was so reluctant. But I felt God's call so strongly. But now as I look back and after all the disappointments in hearing God's voice, I really wonder if that was Him. Today I found out it was all miscom, and that she thought I meant 3 cell groups INCLUDING church. I think in the end I'm just trying to follow His ways and honour Him. Surely He won't punish me for that? Okay distorted image...
If He can use our mistakes and sins for good, how much more can He use our attempts to honour Him?
ANyway, I came back from Vietnam and went straight for youth, and they were having worship. And it was such a great feeling to come back to my spiritual family; one thing I took for granted. Thank God for church ppl.
It's just the first week of school, and I had a panic/stress attack just now, when suddenly everything came again. After 2 months of slacking, it's no joke u know. I suddenly started to doubt if I heard God correctly when He asked me to be a SM (Spiritual Multiplier-like PCGL) in crusade. I mean many people were asking me to really think about it coz I think they know I always over-commit, and I really felt it was God caling me to it during crusade meta camp last year. And I myself wasnt even thinking of it, coz I knew I may not cope. I just wanted the slack worship ic thingy.
The verse that spoke was weird. It was something like 'if you dont do it now, you'll never get another chance. It'll be gone.' Oops..so did I answer the call out of fear? Coz i know after i graduate the chance would really be gone.
I thought a miracle happened when Mummy Lam agreed to let me be a SM. I thought that was God's confirmation. And i was so glad I said yes, even though I was so reluctant. But I felt God's call so strongly. But now as I look back and after all the disappointments in hearing God's voice, I really wonder if that was Him. Today I found out it was all miscom, and that she thought I meant 3 cell groups INCLUDING church. I think in the end I'm just trying to follow His ways and honour Him. Surely He won't punish me for that? Okay distorted image...
If He can use our mistakes and sins for good, how much more can He use our attempts to honour Him?
ANyway, I came back from Vietnam and went straight for youth, and they were having worship. And it was such a great feeling to come back to my spiritual family; one thing I took for granted. Thank God for church ppl.
Focus on your giants - you stumble
Focus on God - your giants will tumble
BYEBYE GOLIATH :)
posted by Kevin at 8:57 AM
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