Straight Line

God after so much, I just learn how You are a CONSTANT.

In a rollercoaster graph, You are the X-AXIS, the One who cuts through the ups and downs and always brings us back. The neutral and the normal.

Sometimes our problems seem so real. NO, YOU ARE THE REALITY. No things won't take a turn for e worse, but in Your Name there's always hope, a better future and a joyful NOW.

I dun care, or I dun wanna care about anything but You God. Sometimes its hard to believe or trust anything, anyone already. Everything is so uncertain, unsure. But You are always CONSTANT.

Dun let the things that happen in this world or things You do, change this believe of mine in You, cos Your intentions and You are always CONSTANT. You KNOW the plans You have for us, yes, You KNOW. Thats so important, I'm glad You really do KNOW what ya doing, You're SURE of what You want for me and Yourself and everyone.

Because You're CONSTANT, make my trust in You constant.

Life of Love for You

Sometimes I dunno if I'm okay or not. I feel like there's nothin much and all, feelin alright and things are fine, yet deep inside I still feel so unsettled and that some things are not right. Maybe I'm just bad at adapting to change, or fear of the future or just thinking too much.

God, when things go wrong in this world, what do we make of it?

There are some things that have happened in the world which I still cannot put together with the promises of the Bible. I have brought some of these questions to older and wiser guys, and somehow they've managed to convince me for that particular case. But deep inside, sometimes God's promises just don't seem to fit!

For example, horrible things like holocausts and world wars; how can I look at this, and I flip to Jeremiah 29:11 and I say to the victims who died of terrible gases: God has a plan to prosper you, a to give you a hope and a future. Oh well some can say that the hope and future lies in heaven. But then again, isn't that an excuse? So anything bad can happen to a Christian, as long as he or she continues to hang on to God and go to heaven in the end. So what promises and HOW can we hang on to His promises?

God how can you let these things happen??

Maybe I still don't see things thru Your eyes.
Or I still don't believe You simply wanna give Your best and Your love.

Or maybe I'm just emoing haha. Ahhhh well I shouldnt be so pessimistic; we choose what we wanna see. But I dun think Christians should 'lie' to themselves sometimes with good promises from the Bible and try to feel happy. Truth is we prob get some shitty deals in life. Maybe before we accept a promise from God, it pays to really know what God is offering or its easy to get disappointed.


That was a very selfish post, yet I'm proud of my honesty.

God its hard to give and live for You when I feel frustrated and disappointed with You, that sometimes You let sadistic things happen in our lives, and I dunno who You are anymore.

Who are You, God?


Still You are the Everlasting and Unchanging God, the God who's always in the picture in any situation. Your answers may be harder than our questions, so when we've reached a point where there's nothing much to ask, I just live by faith, a life to love Him.

It's all about You, Jesus.

It's been a while since I typed here, so much has happened. Now following God in dry seasons without much feelings can be a tough one, and the devil can really confuse. I can choose to believe I'm losing faith and passion in Him. Or maybe I know that deep inside, I dun love God cos of mere feelings, but that He's the One I can't live without, the One I can be so sure of who always does the best for me and never disappoints.

I dun think anyone comes here, yay i juz need a space to vent my weird n emo thoughts haa.