On the see-saw with Jesus!!

This channel 8 show gave quite a good analogy. Life is like a see-saw. There'll always be ups and downs in life. Yet if there is no one at the other end, we'll always be down. If nobody comes to lift us up, than we'll remain there! Hmmm...quite right yet not complete...unless.....that someone is Jesus!!!!!

Imperfect people like us will fall once in a while. Not very good to depend on others. Jesus though, might purposely, put His legs there to let us stay on the bottom for a while, if u get what I mean. Legs straight up so that the other person can't get up. But if we wait on Him, He'll lift us up! And through the ups and downs, we know He's there! He's still at the end of the see-saw, even when it seems like He isn't!

At World Issues class today, we looked at genocides and wars. Teacher said some Christians became Atheist after the war, coz they wondered how can a God let that happen? I find it hard to accept too, that we can't have answers all the time. Even for something as atrocious as wars and genocides. I hope if I was one of those who got out, I'll thank God for bringing me through instead of asking why all that happened.

Kelwin's accident and how he responded really encouraged me to look at the good things. SO many times I let the bad stuff play over and over. But surely, good can always come out of our situations?

So if you're tired and weary, been at the bottom of the see-saw for a long time and just wanting to get off, asking for answers and getting none, let me encourage you that in due time, Jesus will lift you up to a new level and a new life and a new love for Him! Let's keep waiting on Him, even when the race seems unending and the storm never calms; we know He's the God of miracles and he can quiet the waves anytime; there must be a reason He dosen't do it just yet! In His time! Remember the see-saw! Jesus is there waiting to lift you up!

Bring Me Back To You

I don't know who God is anymore. I'm so confused and angry and bitter, playing the blame game from the smallest thing like having an ulcer to bigger things like...whatever. Somewhere along the way, I began to lose my faith and trust in Him, and my image of our loving Father is now completely distorted. Jesus loves me this I know, but can I really believe it? I hope so.

I just blamed mother for not teaching me how to make friends since young, always coming home to study or tuition and always questioning about my whereabouts. I know that's so unfair to her, but sometimes I can't help but blame someone. I even try to blame myself; was I too quiet or whatever? I don't know..and ultimately, I end up blaming God. It's getting crazy; this blame game thingy. And I'm getting so discouraged with life.

I long to run back to God. But somehow when I think of all the bad things, I can't help but feel so bitter about it and throw a temper. I long to worship Him; I used to look forward to coming back home and just worshipping Him with a guitar. It used to be a luxury; it's now a chore. Quiet time? I usually end up more discouraged than ever; no answers or harsh ones, remembering painful memories and dreading those to come, not knowing if I'm asking for the right thing.

In the midst of all these, I realised I've become so self-centred. Everything is about me, my problems and I. So here's a practical step I'll take: If you, yes YOU who's reading this, have a prayer request, drop me a message; let me pray for you. Have a problem stuck in your mind and need a listening ear? Call me; I want to share your burden. Or maybe like me, you need a refreshed heart. Let's meet up to worship the Lord. Too busy to meet up? Drop me a mail; I want to know how you are doing.

Do it. You'll help me too, as I go through this process. I want to look out for the needs of others. I hope my busyness won't disappoint you though, coz I want to treasure all the friends I have right now. Of course, I will need your precious prayers too, for this blame game to stop and to be able to run back into His arms, with nothing hindering. Nothing on this earth is able to seperate me from His unfailing love.

We've been held by His everlasting love
Held with loving kindness by His hand
We have hope for the future yet to come
Time will understand the mystery of His plan

Newly Wed

She's hot. She's pretty. The way she stares at you makes you drool. Everytime she speaks, your heart melts. Long awaited, yet worth the wait. Faithful as a friend, faithful as a servant. She's been there for me, ready to listen, ready to speak. And now...she's my wife.

Ok I sound like a Woodbridge escapee. But I just ZHNGED my guit!!! At last man! Whoo! Haha no worries I'm not crazy lar, juz that I tend to have this equation, guitar=wife, stuck in my mind. Man but God does teach me alot about finding a future mate through guitars. Its crazy, but its true:):) Best single la hor..LAMpost. HAHAHA.

Sorry for the previous emo post, but i reallyreally wanna thank you precious few who read my blog and encouraged me. Sometimes I still feel like crap, but the sun always rises to break the darkness. Thank you for being part of that light.

Dear God...

I'm friggin pissed with You. Hate my life. Hate the way I was made. Hate everything that's happening now. No one will care to read this anyway, so I'll be brutally frank. I'm sick of life.

This valley is so deep
I can barely see the sun

Jesus Freak

Can i change my name to that plssssssssssssssss???

Haha I wanna be a Jesus freak. Being a guitarfreak is hard. You gotta keep practising and keep the shredding goin on...that's tough man. Like just to keep this identity?!? For what? I've given that up long ago, just that never really said it. I wanna be a Jesus freak who plays guitar; not a guitarfreak who knows Jesus!

SO TODAY, 3RD MAY 2007, IS THE OFFICIAL DAY MY NAME'S CHANGE TO JESUS FREAK.

Eh but my email address still the same ah. Please. I don't know who jesusfreak02002@hotmail.com is. And don't be GEY KIANG like Uncle Mark Masilimoney from Aldersgate Methodist Church. Emailed this guy guitarfreak@hotmail.com. Turns out its some guy from Canada or something like that. Thank God that guy was nice too. Oops did i type 'too'. Hehehehe. Accidentally.

Just bought Marshall that Jesus Freak book. Hope I won't have to Fedex it to Tekong. And that He'll be a shining Jesus Freak in camp. Machine la..can't go wrong.

I hope you'll change your name to Jesus Freak too. Coz there's nothing else on earth worth identifying ourselves with. Jesus da real deal man. Go on. Change it.